} waiting again

i am down with a sore throat ): while waiting for a goat to come online for 11 hours already. it is making me so anxious that i am digging my nails again. shucks D:

i shouldn t have told my mother that i was sick, i was so dying to go to church and now , i don t think i can anymore. ]: but the cold is gone (: only left with the stupid dry throat.and the guy from Toy R us called me :D but i am working on the different day as deborah. i am working alone ): i am so scared. deborah said she will accompany me . oh man.

i think goat have temper? concluded that from his testimonials.
but i don t really give a dam about it now, all i want to do is just

talk to him NOW

} wait.

the morning was long while waiting for him to come online. i still can t control the involuntary action of my heart pumping so fast whenever i think of him. i am still waiting for him now .
gosh, goat. your the first guy that made me so anxious in my whole life . i love the feeling.

oh man, how long do i have to wait.
but he really mean that much :D

deborah, come to church tomorrow :]

} may i cry? because i finally spoke to him.

he emailed me and i added him on msn.
omfg, i seriously don t know how to describe my feelings now . the feelings are so mixed. i am really trying so hard to describe it . holy. yes i am happy but honestly it is more than just that. trust me.i dunno what to say or do. when he emailed me , my hands were shivering and my heart was pumping real fast. omg omg omg.

he just went offline and he left me here alone in mixed emotions.
help me. i really need a hug right now.

before going to suntec, met peipei . she was quite shocked to see me as well. it was quite funny. we crapped all the way until her stop. then she still scold me about starting late for getting a job. haha. i don t think i will make it to the jobinterview at Toys R Us in suntec. There were a lot of people applying for it . The sales application were out . Now i am only left with stock takings. ROAR. better than nothing.

later i was deciding whether should i go for floorball club training. yvonne could not go because her brother was sick and fariza could not go because she had to try out for national trials and sheryl just said plainly she was not going ): other than these 3 people, i really dunno anybody else and in the end i didn t go for club training. then i made a new friend - cheryl :D she really really very nice to talk to and she have the same likings as me la :D we walked from marina square to suntec to marina square and met mac chicken for dinner. took neoprints with mcken :D

took a train down to bugis and walked around till our feet hurts. we queued for sake sushi for 30 minutes and we ate quite a lot :D i really don t understand mcken. he is so skinny lor ): thin , urm just lighter than me by a lot >:( then me and cheryl quickly sat together and forced deborah to sit with mcken. it was so funny. could not stop laughing . later i ate one tempaki and coudln t bite properly and deborah laughed louder. i bet mcken think we are childish >:{ cheryl had to go back later while we go to the arcade and played bishi bashi.

deborah's mom called and told deborah she was grounded and i really want to go to church. i really believe He helped me with Goat.

once again, my heart stopped when i saw his name in my inbox.
i wonder if one day will he make me faint.

}yesterday

went to vivocity with uncle willam , ryan and deborah to watch movies. hehs, uncle willam and ryan went to try out the gold class seats while deborah and I just watched Flyboys. Please go watch Flyboys. it is really that good. really. honestly, i guarantee you :D

before that , had lunch at a high class swenson. the food there are a lil expensive than the normal one. so funny. we asked for so much tata sauce that the waiter said " YOU TUO YI GE TATA SAUCE?!" on our 6th asking.

later uncle willam suggested washing our hair for fun at jean yip. i was so shy but since when did uncle willam became so cool lor :DD this is the first tiem i let a guy wash my hair. :] he keep trying to find things to talk to me . it okay la. i don t mind :D at least he is not as pervertic as the guy in the arcade. he coudln t believe i was 16 . hah! i look mature >:] then later he said something funny which i kept laughing about it for a long time.

guy: if you perm your hair, you will look like japanese

jy: LOL

guy: if you straighten your hair, you will look like taiwanese

jy: LOOOOOOOL. STOP IT LA . LOL.

after the movie, we walked around. oh yeah, now i know what sadiq and raihan is working as now >:D i found the truth.

goat goat goat goat goat goat.

thank you very much.
i really really have that much feelings for you.

} more than just puppy love.

right. i think i am more than just bonkers. it is truely LOVESICK . i can t help it, some nights i dream of goatkiss. Is it really fate or just plain coincidence that he live nearby and there is a 30% chance he would come . shit, my heart is beating so fast. i can t even tell myself if i am happy to see him or sad that i didn t get any contacts of him. i think he knows i have something for him but he is not doing anything about it . my mom said after going through Jc , it is hard for him to look at girls my age. She said when i am 18 and he is 21, he would really take a real proper look at the mature true me . But , 18? that is in 3 years time. that amount of time, does it really make me change so much, does it really make me into a woman? hold me okays? i am just afraid i may not have that 'thing' anymore, in three years time.

it is hard being the youngest at home because no one takes you seriously and you will always have this thinking that people will give way to you. that is the problem, that is not mature thinking. another problem is , i never felt this serious in someone before. however , i know that one day i will be rejected by him, honestly. my mom told me to enjoy this feeling while i can, but this feeling, it somehow feels painful? like knowing he is just there! but you just can t , I just can t .

huay yi stayed overnight my house yesterday and she helped glue my lilo and stitch jigsaw puzzles and we played this club penguin game that i coudln t really let go of because i wanted to catch the big fish and in the end i found the secret of it :D omg, this is immature right. ):

later in the night huay yi sleeptalk which gave me such a bad shock! (note that it is 4 am }:[)

huay yi: What colour you want?

jy: -wake up straight away- Huh?

huay yi: WHAT COLOUR YOU WANT?

jy: omg omg , what thing?

huay yi: i am asking you WHAT COLOUR YOU WANT?

jy: i dunno!!

huay yi: forget it , just sleep.

jy: ...

when i woke her up in the morning and asked her what she meant in the night, she said she don t remember. thank god she don t sleep walk in my house. brought her to school to let her play some floorball. everybody thought she was my lil sister and said there was a slight resemblance. i taught her wrist shot and not bad la she :D later accompany her to run . luckily mr wee didn t scold me :] and even asked her if i bully her. hmp. after that everybody played penalty shot and i asked her to play. i think she had fun la . the boys were exceptionally nice :D they pulled the goalpost down when the goalkeeper was not looking and in the end huay yi scored. it was so funny.

met nana and wen later in the passport phototaking shop. she was wearing her Cedar uniform. i don t like it when the blouse is tucked in. look a lil ' toot' , AHAHA, okays. then we had lunch at 147 coffeeshop and go back to my house and played some computer and did some drawings and then it was time for dinner.

we ate at some china resturant which is so good :D i ate alot lor ): fatty. i ordered blackpepper steak rice and i felt so happy because the steak was soft and not tough and when i bite halfway, i realise the steak was not cooked. i lost my appetide. thier carrot cake is nice :D and urm the xiao long pao and the mango pudding :DD god, if i keep feeling happy everytime something nice melts into my mouth , i think i can t fit into my jeans anymore. uncle tai kit took a really ugly photo of me when i was eating xiao long pao, worse of all he is so tyco to catch me sticking out my tongue at him with all my xiao long pau in my cheeks. he won t let me touch his phone now.

and then we went to marine parade and i brought wen and yi to the arcade and the people at the counter tried getting fresh with me . we played basketball and i told huay wen to help me top up because i don t want to see the guy's face and then she scream and ran towards me and i thought somebody touched her but when i saw what she was pointing at,

my heart stopped.

the way home was seriously emotional and uncle taikit kept rubbing it in.

thanks peipei, gloria and yvonne for the presents . i love it :D

MERRRRY CRIMBOO :D

woot, soon it would be 2007 but i still don t need to go to school on Jan :)
life rocks.

celebrated christmas eve at Cornerstone church in Katong shopping center. i was really really so nervous. i didn t know what to do. i felt like a odd thumb sticking out of no where. when everybody was raising thier hands to God, i felt to awkward to do that . But deborah said i would get used to it . :] After that i was introduced to so many friendly people la :D . i think because i was a newbie there, i didn t receive any presents at all ): but it was okay :D later jian chong shared with me his stories with God. I was quite nervous and shy? LOL to make it worse, i was wearing a skirt. ): i felt a lil uncomfortable lor. And jian chong seriously seriously don t like 24, he is even older than my brother. i thought he was 18 or 19 plus.

sigh, i like the present that kelvin gave to deborah, i was so tempting to eat them.

later we had lunch at this delicious cafe. the black pepper chicken there is so good la :D i can t help but to smile at every bite. then later kok sing sit beside me and ate somebody's unwanted food and he kept laming with me ? but it is okays la . i don t mind (: and then he asked me what school i came from , whether it was mixed or what , and at first he pronouced my name wrong and evelyn corrected him and then he said yeah yeah i knew that one. LOL

then this Evain so cute,

FIRST EXAMPLE.

Kelvin: you see hor evain, deborah is my mei and jingyun is her cousin, that makes her my cousin too.

Evain: HUH really ar, (turn to me ) , are you really kelvin's cousin?

Jy: NO

Kelvin: YES

JY: NOO!

Kelvin: YESS!

SECOND EXAMPLE

Evain poked me and asked if i am Korean.

he is so so so cute la :D cannot stand it .

and kelvin hor, another lamer.

FIRST EXAMPLE

Kelvin: JINGYUN!

jy: Ya?

Kelvin: wo bu yao YA, wo yao JI.

jy: ...

SECOND EXAMPLE

deborah: the bus stop is here.

jy : Where?

kelvin: Here (point to his cheeks)

jy : ...

then later we kinda got lost and we took bus 40 to bedok and took bus 9 to si mei . then my mother told my brother to fetch me from tanah merah station instead . :] later i got scolded from my brother and mother for being so late and everybody eat before us . and my mother somehow like don t approve of me going to church. she is like afraid of something. ): later i still eat again at yi lin house. wah lau can grow fat . we played a round a mahjong , a game of ping pong and watched NANA movie, one quarter of it and we took family photo and opened presents! wow wow wow, i got a cashbank from kaka, a big big notebook which i really love from wen and yi, a book, marley and me from a deborah which i think it is the greatest present, a tigger plushie from ryan, a sexy necklace from ah kim, another sexy necklace and a bracelet from gi kim, a zip zip bag and a ang pow from nana , a eye glazer from school e and the most comical of all , yuan yin gave me fake eyelashes. OMG. everybody laughed . she is so cute la. i asked her is it my eyelashes not long enough or something. so funny. Rocky got his shares in shredding up the wrapping paper.

we went back home at 1am because my dad was tired ):
party pooper.

i won t forget 23rd december and the 9th of august.

} zoo zoo

as we walked to the left,
as we walked to the right,
as we walked , as we walked,
as we walked all night,
with our heels and our toes,
and a half turn about ,
we've found a new found friend :D


i had the worst morning today. deborah and i so badly wanted to bring huay yi go to the zoo today but her ( mang zhang ) mother didn t allow cause she was too busy getting school stuff for huay wen. sigh. deprived childhood. nana was afraid she would get caught in the rain. and guess what, it didn t even rain heavily today! but when we left the house to the zoo, huay yi really really really reallly looked sad. sigh, if i were her, i would have cried. D:

met mac-chicken at AMK interchange. waited so long >:[ luckily he came in time with the bus :D
the journey to the zoo was quite short :D maybe because i was quite excited or something. we finally reached there and i coudln t help but to think back about yvonne's birthday party. yucks!
ate a lil KFC before going in . took a lot a lot of pictures :D

sigh. i still dunno if the false gavial near the entrance is really false. do you know the crocodiles inside are seriously gigantic! the tails are way way fat, like about 50 cm. SO BIG CAN :D i don t like it . it is so scary. i wonder whether i was looking through a macnifying glass of something. the llamas there are very ai swee they actually let you take a picture of them upclose and posing ? Inuka , the polar bear, looked so sian lor ): i think he is going to be sent to another country soon and there will be no more polar bears in our zoo. we went to see the CATS family, the amphibians family, the aviary and some butterfly dome. all the animals are let loose. very very cool :D then, there was this fake frog on the floor and i thought it was real and i screamed. D:

in the end, i could not get anything for huay yi at the souvinier shop. we got lost during closing time.

had dinner later at bishan in the food court. i think bishan should hire better singers :D
and finally i got huay yi a christmas ornament and a blackandwhitepig stickers she really like. my mom said that make her day :D

happy tang yuan day :D


} yesterday.

went with school e , my mother and deborah to the floral exhibition at suntec. very beautiful. :D
deborah and huay yi stayed overnight my place and we made christmas cards :}

} stuck here waiting.


didn t really do much today.
watched Atlantis in the morning and played the computer the whole afternoon after that. too busy having fun with raquel and pauline. later learnt a lil beading session taught by my mom. she wanted me to make something for Kaka because she always get me something for christmas. in the end, i made her a pair of earrings. :D

i actually cooked!
i cooked porridge for dinner and prepared the ingredients :) i am so proud of my achievement! i finally finished one of my jigsaw puzzles. so romantic :D lilo is kissing stitch. i was thinking of goat the whole time i was doing it . man, and my mother actually talk to his mother this afternoon and she told me that after we arrive in singapore that day , some girls asked for his photos. bleurrrrgh. arggggh. bleurh!

was quite pissed at deborah and joanna just now . one can t make up her mind and the other dunno how to explain herself. so at first deborah cancelled her chalet and decided to stay with me instead and then joanna called and plead her to stay at the chalet and deborah was confused. i know she badly want to go but . hmm nevermind, anyway now she decided to stay at my house now :]

going to see some flower exhibition tomorrow. if i didn t see my mother's exasperation, i think i woudln t go with her . ): but flowers are cool :D especially when they are from all around the world!

btw, i heard this really really cool fact:

santa's original clothes colour are actually blackand white but because coca-cola decided to use santa claus as their advertisement and change the colour to red and white and from then on, people recognise santa claus as red and white instead :D

yeah. bet you didn t know that :)

} who's the fairest of them all?

wow. it's been raining a awful lot. i don t even need to on the air condition yesterday and i still can cover myself with a blanket? this shows how cold it is ! it 's been raining from last night until now! woot. i am repeating myself :]

played Tomba 2 this morning and i really put so much effort in it but my brother and I coudln find the memory card so in the end i have to delete everything! like argh, so wasted ):
went out to the new IKEA today and luckily it wasnt crowded . we still can find parking spaces? {a lot of them } omg omg omg , and ikea have really really nice meatballs! they are the only place where i know i can eat my meatball with confidence! :] Mm, love the gravy and the jam. it is so dam good can :D

my mother bought her shelves for the balcony and kitchen and i bought a full-length mirror to put in my room to admire myself 24 hours loong. i dunno what is wrong with my hair style these days, my center parting is showing D: i don t like partings. i don t even want to show any of them, INCLUDING CENTER! bleurgh. maybe it is the weather. maybe.

mr. wee sms today and i think he seem a lil shocked that i am not in the league? i mean there are so many good people in there! i am practically a baby when i go into that club. i think he seriously want me to play because he kept mentioning about division 2 . hmm. but mr. armin didn t even tell me and yvonne about anything regarding to the league. i think we are that bad

i don t like the jigsaws i bought yesterday. they are so thin and breaks up easily.
wonder what am i gonna do tomorrow. i can t always watch movies.

} monsoon season.

i`m finally finally home. just like yesterday, the rain was just as heavy. my entire jeans and sandals were wet! half the time i had to step in deep puddles ): so for those i have bought presents for today must appreciate it ! i shall complain to them in thier christmas cards to make it more sincere and also guilty and pressure on them to get me better presents. hah! :D

man, i am so mean. :}

went downtown today with yi lin and deb. sigh, meet that stupid lady from the `modelling agency` she just won t let me go? in the end i had to give her my number and this is the thrid time she is asking me :{ . i must complain! Yi lin say if i want to model there, i have to make a 300$ portfolio. wth, trying to cheat my money? They are the one that are suppose to pay me for the beautiful photos of me ! dam. i need to call the police :{ tmd.

watched ' trust the man ' . very very funny and a lil on the digusting side but it is ok because it is a NC 16 movie and i QUALIFY :D woot. i don t even need to show my ID card. someone congratulates me please :) before heading into the movie , took neoprints and ate ice cream at cinneleisure. we ordered five flavour but i only like 4 of them ): i don t like anything to do with green tea . So i just ate the brownie, rocky road, caramel fudge and triple chocolate. the art of being sinful :D

went to heeren later to look for males' present. so dam difficult to buy can }:[ one of them is so old fashion and the other one is so hip but still want feminine patterns. in the end , i got him some complicated pattern with a pink dot in it . i hope that is feminine enough. He is not even gay lor ! }:[ dunno what he is trying to prove . i dunno, i just can t stand guys who wear pink. it is just not right. Girls are lucky, they can wear universal colours and they look good and sexy in guys' clothes.

later went to buy xxx for someone . very funny . i was looking at the brown xxx but it didn t seem to have his size then the staff asked me if i needed help. I told him i wanted a bigger xxx for brown and the staff gave me a funny look and told me my (body part) * don t think dirty* werent that big! i told him i wanted to buy for somebody else and then i looked at his (body part) * don t think dirty* and asked for his size because i think someone`s size is the same. wah lau. this is getting so horny }:[ but it is not okays. So he smiled at me and gave me the size. I told the staff i would look around and after that i brought deborah with me and she told me it was fine! So i took that particular size and went to the counter. The staff smiled at me and said this was his size. I think i laughed quite loud because what he said wasn t really necessary but who cares. he kept staring at me after that.

have fun guessing :D
( in a clean way okays )

btw, it is not for a boyfriend, i don t have one , it just someone i am REALLLLLLLLLY close to.
even till the day i die :)

had sushi for dinner at heeren and headed down to taka later for yi lin to buy her boots. it looks really good and sexy :D btw, do you guys argee with me that the New Urban Male`s staff are good looking ? Are they really hire for their looks ? nevermind , later it was seriously pouring on my home. so depressing to walk alone especially in this weather. At least i don t think emo, like " i love to walk in the rain so no one can see my tears " holy crap .

bought 2 jigsaws to entertain myself and nobody wants to go out with me tomorrrrrow .
sigh. ):

} caramel`s death anniversary.

just came back from floorball training at Republic Poly. Yes, i finally made a decision to go. Going there was a problem. It was raining so heavily that my mother , brother and i got into a arguement. In the end i got my way :D i mean if i knew my way to RP, i would probably let them fetch me . However i didn t know anything, isn t it better to get the full information first and then you guys can fetch me the second time? sigh. it is the rain man, the rain

gathering at deborah`s house yesterday. nothing much. went back home at 11. i think half the time we were eating? so i killed yesterday`s calories by today`s training. i am all balanced now :D Coach scolded Yvonne and I today because we didn t understand one part of the drills. BUTTT, later he was nice enough to give us a koala bear magnet from australia. he said my koala bears were homosexual because one of them was on top of the other. i just laughed

anyway i dreamt that i wanted to eat pizzahut pizza today but my mother didn t let me get it . When i woke up , i was seriously craving for it and i ran down to tell my mother to go and order. She thought i was nuts and sleepwalking at first but we still ate pizzahut pizza - pepperoni flavour for lunch :) mMm.

yes. my father is going China again! :DDD
going to meet Yi lin and Deborah at orchard tomorrow. thank you that it is late in the afternoon if not i will be late again. Most of the time in Japan trip, people had to wait for us . I bet they think we are a nuisance. Anyway i can get somemore presents tomorrrrrow :)

{bless Caramel`s soul}

btw, it doesn t really matter to me now that i am not playing in the league :l

} have a jolly christmas :D

hey. this blog is collecting cyber dust. haven t really been updating it since i come back from Japan :x i just don t have the mood now . oh well, i just guess i try now . anyway my christmas list of giving to people is adding ): but christmas is all about giving and receiving :D i just hoped i will receive more ! hah!

went to watched a movie , The Holiday, with deborah yesterday. Pretty comical. Later went to buy christmas presents! Almost half of my list is checked . friggin happy. however , i still haven t got anything for the most important people in my life ): nevermind , monday monday monday! ahah, so shocked that jian wei got me a present already. it is the first christmas present i got from him after being his cousin for 16 years. he keep hinting to me he wants a brown shirt with feminine pattern. i don t like that ): since when was he gay? oh wait, one time he wore this shirt saying " i am your private dancer " hm. sometimes he can be so MAN.

japan trip was alright . seriously enjoyed myself there, except for the thrid day though. i vomitted ): but nevermind, lust from afar overcome alllll! i fell in front of him . friggin pai seh. thank god i didn t wore a skirt. i really kiao kah until i can t kiao kah anymore. Also, one time i thought i knocked on nanas door but it turned out to be his. i didn t even comb my hair. argh. #@$#$%#$%. dam it! oh yes. i finally saw, touched snow! i made a snowangel, snowball and a snowman. right. one of my dreams come true! (heart shape)

there is floorball training tomorrow. i honestly dunno whether should i go. i mean i am not in the league team and sigh. everything is so complicated and i thought going into club would solve everything. guess i am wrong about this one. besides , it is not as if i don t have time for the training, it is just me towards the people there. It is not there i have anything against them , it is just uncomfortable. the trouble of making new friends.

this blog is lagging. it makes my typing goooooo slooow. i wanted to change blog initially but the new version is crapping me off. so i shall stick with this.

listen to the new japanese song :D
heard it on the ANA flight .
love it :D

She had guts all right.

YESTERDAY

ahah. Had SGS floorball training and Mr.wee made me and yvonne watched a floorball video to show us when to position ourselve and what to do. Didn t really played much during the match because i didn t feel like it with the dumb moronic people were playing with us.

I changed my mind about going to Tessa to get a stick because Keith could get it at a much cheaper price. So in the end, Peipei joined Yvonne and I to watched a movie - Happy feet. It was average and mostly singing basically . But if you really think deeply, and reflect the movie Happy Feet into reality, Mambo is something like a person who is not academically talented. In their world of penguins, everybody had to sing but all he could do was to tap his feets which everybody find it a disgrace and pity . However no one ever thought of Mambo`s tapping of feet cuold be another talent. But movies shall be movies, Mambo was a hero. Do people like me ever get my own happy endings and the feeling of a hero?

Later i struggled to tell peipei the truth about what yvonne and I had been doing . I dunno if she was mad or anything.After that Yvonne and I rushed down for club training. very very tough training. and i hated it when the coach asked us to run around the school. the place is like so eerie and it is beside a temple. Because of this, i have to run faster , making me pant more. Today`s training was really multi racial , i could see a swedish player and some ang mors. I thought they were really stuck up and all but they are quite friendly. I saw Mark, we didn t even bother to make eye contact which i feel really bad of me . Because it wasn t really his fault . Anyway i am going to miss the last training at MI on friday because i will be in Malaysia picking fruits! :] this sucks because the last training is supposed to be the most fun and that when the selection starts.

I mean like this is bad, at first i already made a bad impression. sigh. Yvonne said she wants to quit the club because she is an introvert which was partly correct because when everyone sat together, they were in groups and yvonne and i stuck out as a awkward pair. I knew she hated this feeling. And it is also because she wants to join JC and all. that is serious pang-sehing of her lor.

the coach kept scolding me to kept both eyes open. i didn t really understand it at first. and when he scold me i just go HEHS? and it didn t really help because i was not that close to him and i was afraid to ask him what he mean. So everytime we made eye contact, he would say KEEP THE OTHER EYE OPEN LA. i felt really dumb at that time. so before i bathed, i looked at myself in the mirror, i finally got what the coach meant , my mickey mouse`s face shirt was winking


btw, Kor is back home :)

TODAY

woke up with a struggle to go to the temple with my mom and bro. I felt really confused. I mean here i am sometimes praying to God and now i am praying to Guan Yin Niang Niang. Am i betraying Him? However, i am not even a full - pledged christian. I haven t even been to chruch ONCE. so, who am i to believe now.

later joined nana, huay yi and uncle tai kit for lunch at bugis. Kor later suggested about drink bubble tea. i was quite happy when he said that for dunno what reason. He bought milk tea which i could have object because i never drank milk tea but sheet la , i just drink can :] Then he told me in australia, they sell bubble tea there for 6 dollars? LIKE OMFG. -bang table- you can buy 6 bubble tea with that 6 dollars. Then we went to an arcade and he didn t give me a dollar to try the picking up of toys machine.

Later went to raffles city because robinson had a 20% discount storewide. i didn t buy anything from t there but i bought a esprit pants.Had dinner at asian kitchen and it was the most spooky thing i had . I saw nana from afar and i started waving . Then suddenly this waiter pop out of no where and ask me what i want. I got a bad shock and screamed then when he was gone I started laughing to myself . I thought i was paranoid because he kept staring at me even after i have left the table and walked to the opposite shop with my brother. Then we were already quite far from asian kitchen , suddenly i felt someone tapping my shoulder and asking for my number in chinese. My first reaction was shit, i don t understand. I mean, when it comes to Chinese, i need to slowly hear it . Sometimes i think pauline and sandy get pissed at me wehn they type chinese in hanyu and i don t even understand . Then when i turned around , it was that waiter lor. I got such a bad shocked. I looked for a brother but he walked so far ahead not being aware that his sister is being stalked by a waiter. I quickly said no and ran off . I didn t even bother to look at his upset face. I think the way i said no was quite ugly because i said it like how people want me to donate but i just shake my head and give them a weak smile . I quickly tell my brother what happened. Then he like want to go find him and beat up the guy . I was like so scared. THen he asked me how he looked like and i descibed and then you know what he said, OHOH. is it the one , the face look like pug?

nevermind. anyway gotta go packed my bag for the trip to malaysia tomorrow. it is only one night (:

SHE WILL BE LOVED.

yes! finally got back my nokia phone . I had it for repair for four days and i had to use wen`s old phone. I prefer it than the nokia 2100. btw, i lost everybody`s number. so, if you sms me and i ask you who are you, please don t be pissed :). omg , kor kor is coming home already! i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him :D

went out with deb( Miss i am ALWAYS right) to town to watch Material Girls. Not bad la , the stupid newspaper gave it a 1 star? Anyway i always like to watch movies where hillary duff is acting in.

having floorball training tomorrow then i want to head down to tessa to check out the sweet sticks :] so people, are you clueless on what to get me for Christmas? Here is a hint , I want a new floorball stick and a floorball bag. thanks , mooarks!

wooot. going malaysia on friday!
then i have to miss training. sigh.

Unwanted pieces of paper; crush it please.

omfg. i woke up at 8:30 to have a friendly match against our school . My stamina is like sheet la. I didn t even score a goal today. Depressing. I made a new friend - Cheryl. She is quite friendly :D Then we wanted to add each other on friendster, but i didn t get her email :l Maybe i should ask Fariza.

Sheet la . My knee is giving me problems. Today i was quite pissed at Sofian. He , Hmm how do i say, Nevermind. Just like kan ta bu shuang ? He keep looking down on me and giving me this freaking smirk which i felt like tearing it off his face. Then Suju told Gloria that i have this killer stare. LOOL. damn funny. Actually Suju is right . I do stare like that during the game . LOOL. Like i am panting already and you still smirk? Whatever. At least i have a pride and don t bootlick people. After 6-7 months of studying and not touching the stick, I lost my damn stamina. I better go jog everyday now . I think Mr.Wee was quite disappointed with me today. Sigh. Yeah. Some stupid goal of mine.

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I went to the Hospital yesterday and took a blood test. I don t understand. Is the world really like this? How come i can survive the worst in the family but why is my body the most problematic. It is so depressing for me to keep thinking like this. Even my mother don t understand that sometimes, or maybe , nobody. I know they tried. But it is never the same unless your in the same shoes as me . Everybody is different . But i think i am the one that sticks out the most . i decided to walk around and i saw in the lobby of the hospital, there were PLENTY of folded cranes floating above my head. I think there are more than a thousand. They say if you make 1000 cranes, you can make a wish and your wish will come true.

I finally bought my dress! :DDDD
and i think my father was quite content that i join him to dinner today.

People say i should appreciate my talents for what it is .
But my talents are not here and there~

WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING DOWN AT?

i am in a pissed off mood. very pissed mood.

i don t understand. why is it in human nature that everyone only want the best? Not everybody is academically incline but they don t seem to understand. And that really hurt my heart because i can t help to think, that i am a burden? And it does not help that there are several smart ones in teh family. Like Fuck it la ! So what ?! Not clever enough for you , nothing is ever ENOUGH for you guys. Never good enough, Never smart enough, Never this Never that. I thought my talents were something to be proud of , but i am wrong. What the hell is there for me to show off? I got no brains and looks.

Btw Pauline, i am not mad at you.

Maybe i should just isolate myself so i won t seem to be a Baddy.

:D

LOL. my mother just can t get over the fact that i don t need to study for the next 4 months . i was watching a movie while she was heading out for her facial,

Me: BYE MOMMY!
Mom: Byebye, remember to help me off the soup!
Me: Mhmm.
Mom: Remember to study later !
Me: Uhuh, EH WHAT WHAT ! NO NEED ALREADY LA ! LOL

so funny.
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didn t really do much today! wanted to go watch movie with yvonne , but she was all so lazy. Then tomorrow ! Yay, Mr Wee said i can join Skool! so freaking exciting . (: I waited 2 years for this and i won t let it get by me again! WOOOH. this is the life man! How many times can i say that? Anyway, i am getting BORED. come on, Life take me by my hands and bring me to places where you will leave me in awe .

WAH LAU. peipei clean her room? I ALSO CAN.
later la... (:

CHEEBS! IT IS ALL OVER OVER OVERRRRR . (:
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!

i just had a blast today! freaking fun (: the MCQ science was okays .

Finally went to Escape today. I couldn t controlled my excitment, i just could not stop giggling away on the way there? We took most of the rides and it is freaking hot in the early afternoon. It is also quite odd because there is only 3 of us so some of the rides, one of us has to sit alone.

We sat on the Flippers first~
I saw Cheryl , freaking lian and taller than me, i dunno what is she trying to prove whether she is cool or some sort cause she was wearing a jacket? I was sweating there like a pig and the way she walk, somehow tell me that she doesn t believe in the word ` HOT`, i think is more likely `cool` . The Flippers was not bad (: , 2 rounds only. i like the way we spin .

Later we sat on the Rainbow ):
this time i sat alone and it was quite weird because there is a big space beside me . So when the thing twirl, i keep sliding to the left and right. I was so afraid my pants would be black. LOOL. then i think we sat on the viking ship where i felt i almost wanted to vomit cause it was too slow.
i didn t get to sit at the end ); this time we sat together (: Btw, we saw Denise too!

Peipei and I tried the WaterLog later. ( yvonne chicken out (:) I change slippers with her and queue up. VERY FUNNY. For the waterlog, you have the small and the big one. The small one was okays. When we were preparing for the grand one, we saw the signboard "15 metres high, please do not try to stand up" i think both of us panic LOL. I couldn t stand the part where the waterlog was going up and there is this loud cracking sound that goes : TIK TEETIK. Peipei made me sit in front ):

We went to the Haunted house later. the first time we went in, i pushed peipei in front then I was in the middle and Yvonne the last , and in front of us was this brother and his little sister. So the first time when we went in, we were so scared , we just saw machines moving (dummys) then we quickly run out. All of us went to sit on a mini roller coaster. i sat with a lil girl (: . We queued 1 hour and 1o minutes for the goKART. my neck ache. Driving down the slope was pretty scary and it really hurt your head cause the road had little bumps on the floor and your head will jerk alot!

It rained heavily after that. So we just sat around in the shelter because all the rides had to stop temporarily but the Haunted house didn t . So i made Yvonne and Peipei join me again. OMG. THE SECOND TIME WAS REALLY REALLY HILARIOUS. i think the HH have 6 pathways, like a maze. So we were like already comforting ourselves that we know what will happen and all so we walk like quite proud? LOOOL. So later when we almost wanted to pass this prison, A dummy supposingly sitting on the floor, jumped out and pulled open the fake bars and chased out. The malays girls in fron t of us screamed and ran towards us . Then i was thinking wth? Then i saw him heading towards me. I also tiok pa! Then i think Yvonne and Pei pei scream. Then then Malays girls dunno where they were going , banged into me and pushed me against the wall! I was like OMG! i dunno, when i am scared and shocked, i just stand there and don t run? So i leaned against the wall and use my hands to cover my eyes and I shake my head . In my mind , i keep thinking he will come and tickle me? So the monster was wearing a hood over and holding a sickle. So when i put my hand down, the stupid monster was a few steps away and slashing the sickle against the wall. I think it scared the Malays girls more cause they ran towards the entrance screaming OPEN THE DOOR OPEN THE DOOR OPEN THE DOOR! banging on it somemore. Then i was like quite clueless cause the entrance had this poster of a monster which i thought was another stupid real monster , so i just stand in the middle? Then the door open , and i saw yvonne ran out , then peipei also, then i felt somebody pulled me outside but i was like , i want to stay inside? LOOOOL so after we were out, we were panting like crazy. Then the Gatekeeper was laughing away then he tell us if we want to play again, we have to queue up!

like omg. I go in like not 5 minutes but i queued longer than that?

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.
i still cannot stop laughing because i saw Yvonne screaming because Yvonne is not those type of girls who scream and get scared easily.
i think the stupid guy must be laughing his arse off la.

We ate dinner at Tampines and went home (:

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Went to Yi Lin`s house yesterday to celebrate Ah gu`s birthday.
Deborah , Sufen and I walked Rocky
We saw the trojan horse house (:

BUBBLE DRESSSSS . -POP-

actually , i am not in the mood of blogging (:
but i force myself (:

i finally got my passport photo done! it waited like 3 hours in the boring immigration office . luckily i had huay yi to pei me , if not i would just DIE. anyway i saw this freaking freaking freaking nice goth (hi yoges) bubble dress that is $145.95! like argh, my mom say too bad i don t have a prom or a graduation , if not she will consider getting it for me ): . like what yoges and i said, CHEEBS LA.

i bought this 23$ necklace from TOPSHOP. (:
and i ate a fondue.

life is getting better as O levels starts to escape through your fingers.

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LEFT ONE MORE MCQ SCIENCE :D

TU AMORRRR.

hey. that song is great (:

anyway i am having my account MCQ tomorrow. this is last i will be seeing all my tuition teachers man! muahaha. anyway i am so god name happy, yvonne has finally agreed to go to escape on 20th november which is the last of all the Os paper. like woot, forking happy (: . no wait, that is ys, i mean, SPOONING HAPPY.

anyway going to change my passport photo tomorrow then hanging out at suntec. i hope to find my dress there (:

btw, going to ah gu house for his birthday on sunday. ROCKY HERE I COME ! (:

YOU ARE ASKED TO CHOOSE A DOOR.

hey ! (: it is 1:37am in the morning but i am feeling damn hyper?

anyway, i got my BOLD BIG HEADING from the book " the curious incident of the dog in the night-time" damn nice. please read it . i think i read it last time because richielyn read it. whatever, a book is meant for everybody to read. OH YEAH, talking about dog, i adopt a virtual dog (: she is blue and her name is glitter. She will only shut up when she have a ball in her mouth.

then pauline was like playing with my dog then she tell me,

pauline: Your dog can t catch the ball i throw.
me: IT CAN IT CAN! it always catch my ball!
pauline: no it can t , because i throw it at the floor.
me: maybe she don t want to catch, cause your hand is SMELLY

LOL. damn funny.
Later Ys, Pauline and I were a smart set of utensils. I am SPOON, pauline is BOWL, Ys is FORK! we wanted seraphine to be the knife but she refused ): maybe deep down, she rather be the chopsticks.

Anyway, please listen to My Love - Justin Timberlake.
that song totally rock my socks off. damnsexy(:

I LEFT 2 MORE MCQ PAPER!
ACCOUNT AND COMBINE SCIENCE ! freakin happy.
don t worry about it, i will study and not to use my eraser as a dice.

btw, Kor is coming home soon!
i am 50% happy and 50% confused.
I dunno, maybe it is because i can t wait to receive the presents he got for me (: and becuase i haven t seen him for a long long long long time! but i am confuse because the same symtoms are going to appear. He is 80% NOT at home. He is either with:

1) his girlfriend
2)his girlfriend
3) his girlfriend
4) ta de nu peng you
5) help me to translate "his girlfriend" in other languages . >:[
6) his brothers
7) his army friends
8) his PS2
9) his girlfriend

maybe if i wish really hard..

10) HIS LOVING CARING PRETTY BEAUTIFUL CUTE SISTER , JINGYUN!

you guys must be coughing in delight. :D

BY THE WAY I AM
ANTI-CLOGS.

THEY DO HARM TO ESCALATORS!

youmakemewannaOOHOOH.

hey, happy belated birthday dear huay yi (:
your one year older!
love you lots!

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you know i was thinking (after a game of mahjong with my computer) who i could count on if i was in trouble or just suffer from a down fall, is there anyone i can count on? Is there anyone i can just bawl on his/her shoulders without having to worry whether his/her shirt is gonna be wet and he/she is going to mind. Seriously, do you have one? Not everybody is fortunate enough to enjoy this counting on or supporting on partner or buddy. I mean , please don t take for granted for those around you ; you would never know when something might happen and everything have vanished or simply gone. Family, friends, whatever you think he or she is.

I honestly think the world is changing. When i was still in primary school, i thought Paint programme was the most fun thing in my computer but look at the kids around you, ( i mean primary school) , BLOG! ; Barbie doll is like an old school thing now. When i was still in primary school, i only BGR only exist in the adult world, but holy shit, primary school kids are getting thier HIM and HER already. Where was i during thier age! What was i even doing at thier age! Hold on , i think i remember , I was playing Neopets and play-pretends. So, if this is the case, i must be really hopeless in love because i can t seem to find THE ONE if finding a boyfriend or a girlfriend in important in the universe now. LIKE GOD. i can t even recalled being depressed over a boy when i was 12 .

I think it is the milk. You know, the chemicals in those milk powder ? Too much elements in it. The kids grew up smart in other stuff. So , traditionally , breast milk is the best. it is natural. Unless the mother is one of those who is made to drink those chemically dangerous milk powder. Then the whole story would be different again. And if it is like this, i probably be writing a novel.
Maybe the book`s title is Jingyun`s negative idea about milk powder. Well, actually milk powder is just one side of the story, it is up to you to search the other side.

i am shivering in my room. The air-con is blasting at my spine, even my fingers are getting a lil numb. You know , everyday life is changing without you knowing it. I am almost finishing this race and moving on to another. Secondary school life , i can wave goodbye to it soon. My mother can t wait for me to work. I dunno, i need a freakin break first. Work? Eventually...

and fuck, my school don t have a prom. i want a gown? D:

there is no such thing as HIM.
be self-centered, There is such thing as a ME.

SUMMER DRESSES. BEACH. SUN. SAND, ANYMORE?

man , i am so craving for a dress to wear. i saw a $208 one today at marine parade.
i think i need to sell off my organ to get that money to buy that freaking dress. anyway, math paper 2 was rather easy today , though some people find it hard.

alright, 3 more paper. like WHOO HOOO.
10 more days and counting.

today dinner was like suck.
but the dessert was like AWESOME (:
i ate so many sinful thing lor.
like strawberry cheeese cake, tiramisu, chocolate liquor cake, and this strawberry custard thing
LIKE OMFG :DD!

yay, people say i lose weight.
but i must lose MORE!
:D

DREAMS

finally English is over .
i can speak singlish now (:
geog geog geog.
this one must really pia.

PAIN IN THE ARSE.

THANK GOD! the merger came out! All the stick-man cartoons i drew did not go to waste. WAHAHAHAHAS. i feel so evil. But seriously, i don really know what the question were tlaking about . Lets see, Math is a total A no more.

Anyway, i really really love my blogskin.
Thanks to my dearest pauline :D

Chemistry is tomorrow yet i am feeling tired now.

KALAPUI

right , monday is social studies and math paper 1 . i am so hyped up for ss. i am supposed to study 4 chapters but i am studying 2. i am seriously waiting for 20th november to come. after that, it is hallalujah. :D what joy.

you know, several blogpost i have written about her. let just say i don t give a damn anymore. Rich simply can t tell me in the face that i am arrogant and love to attract attention and i have change. Honestly rich, if this is how you want it, then fine, we just go our separate ways. If you simply hate my presence so much, tell me straight in the face, afterall you been through so much hardship, surely you don t have the guts to tell me? I am not your toy , Rich. You don t just leave me there on the shelf to rot and play with me ONLY WHEN YOU LIKE IT. I am arrogant but you didn t tell me the examples so how do you expect me to change for you? But hold on, if we are friends, shoudln t we accept each toher good and bad points? well, hell to that man! it doesn t even matter to you even more. I don t understand why i am so discreet about it in the past, maybe because i respected you. So yeah, go play with your Eunice. She is all that matters.
i guess the ship have sank.

You know sometimes when i am so stressed from studying. i just can t stop thinking about people or things that have affected or caused a great impact in my life. I think about the person who almost killed my mother, i think about arguements. I don t understand. Why is it i am always at the loser end? Why is it i can t think at the positive side? Why do i have to torture myself this way? And for these type of questions, there is really no answers behind it all and therefore are we just left there clueless? Sometimes i just feel that the word ` FRIENDS` and `LOVE` can be such a nuisance in life. For me, they create nothing but troubles. However, i forgotten those people who give such great examples on these words, like my Mother , Yvonne , Peipei, Deborah and so on. If there are several good sides and bad sides in everyone, why is it that we are never fair? never fair in our doings?

i hate myself for my stupidity into falling into traps like this because some traps you fall into, you simply don t learn. I have forgotten the pain i have felt, the scars i have suffered from. It is like once again, a new experience for me everything except for the worse.

Yi Lin :

I was never talking bad about your friend, Lara. I was just refering to the virtual cat. It had never occured to me that the name Lara was a friend of yours. It was a misunderstanding between Deborah, you and I. We just wanted you to put a virtual dog called Rocky. It was never a harmful thing about your friend , Lara. So yeah, if i really hurt you, i am sorry.


Deborah:

Nobody ever said love was easy. Strive hard for Os (:

Pauline:

Waiting for that beautiful blogskin :D!

Chinese - gone gone gone.

i dunno. i mean this is my second time retaking the paper and i am MORE stressed up than previously. i just couldn t sleep . i tossed and turned from 12AM to 4 am. So if your really good in mathematics, i only slept for 2 hours. ):

anyway i think there is this one question where i think the examiner will start laughing because i said something about fat and pretty woman (which is very the out of point ) -.-

Right, B4 ?
i think it is just a candyfloss dream.

THE OTHER HALF IS ACTUALLY THE OTHER HALF

i am so freakin stress from art. i don t really understand what i am trying to draw now. It is making me work up , in other words, feel like crushing the paper and throw my colour pencils out of the paper and walk into the art room telling Miss R [ Because i am like that ] But she would still give me a A1 because i have a great attitude and i can walk off while the rest paint like crazy

Too bad, Life is not like that.
please wake up , miss CJY.

anyway, i watched the dumb and dumber movie. yes, i should have been studying but what can i say, I NEED A FREAKIN BREAK . the movie is amazingly funny and not as cold as i thought it would be . For eg:

Harry said : I breed a male bulldog with a female shih tzu
Lady said : OH MINE, so what did you call it?
Harry said: Oh, BULLSHIT!

man. i laughed like crazy.

JELLLLYBEANS.

just had chicken rice with deb, her mom and ryan.
hmm, yes mom, i didn t expected that chicken rice would be our nice lunch. GOOD ONE. you SURPRISE ME! :D

i thought it was something grand. so funny.
no la, not trying to be sarcastic here -.-

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deb went home after studying 2 hours at my house.
i revise my biology and did my art.
btw peipei, don t say i skipped school leh.
):

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i am a very the goodest girl (:

CHINESE EXAM IS COMING.
GIVE ME A C5 or best B4 leh (:

WHAT EXACTLY IS NEAR?

i feel like a felt-touch bomb.
like, don t even bother going near me. >:l

i feel like strangling Huay Wen, Ryan and their friends.
like, their PSLE IS OVER ALREADY.

i feel like making my mother into a television.
like, so there is a mute button or a volume control. >:D

i feel like playing floorball.
like, I HAVEN T PLAYED IT FOR SOO LONG.

i feel like asking her what is her problem.
like, she is doing it again -.-

i am so full of FEELINGS :D

ORANGECATUS? RIGHT..

-ouch-

now deborah is angry at me.
yes yes, seriously, actually, honestly she is a demure girl in fact.

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MAN.
had my O level practical today. Please God, don t let it be screwed. Everybody studied furiously for titration and IN THE END we were given urm CATION AND ANION? well, in a way you can shout out like YAY, GREAT, WOOOT but the amount of time spend is wasted, SIGH. Hmm, let see, Biology. We were requested to do the Biology first and the moment i stepped in and saw the plants in a beaker of water, i just freaked out.

Investigate water loss, cut the corn into half..
Through out the practical, my hands were having fits. When we were suppose to cut the stem under the water, the blade of the scissors went TINGTINGTING against the beaker. We were suppose to estimate about 1 cm but i was so afraid i would get a paralax error when it does not make a big deal la -.-

Quarantine in the hall made my legs ache.

OH YEAH. THANK GOD FOR ZS.
he confirm with me for the chemistry answer. so freakin happy =]

later had lunch with yvonne at hougang mall.

Right, got to turn in. Mr wong`s lesson starts at 8 tomorrow. And it is supposed to be a holiday.

POLKADOTCAT.

i am down with flu, all thanks to the lowly-educated indonesian people in Sumatra. Yes, burn more please. Let the whole world die with farmers and black trees, not to mention, being choked too.

you know, i was thinking of locking my blog. i don t understand why people who does not care about you, still looked at your blog. Does it even make any sense? Maybe they haven t even had enough of poking enough of your life. Or maybe they still care ( which is highly impossible-to me) However, the trouble is posting a lock means telling everyone your password and poof, i have no time for that. See the amount of posts i have been missing?

Anyway, i checked out Vevocity yesterday. Let me tell you, my first reaction was OMFG. Seriously, after stepping into the entrance of Vevocity, i really honestly felt that i was in Malaysia. I dunno why. Probably it is because this is SINGAPORE BIGGEST SHOPPING MALL EVER. Have you heard it`s size? If i am not wrong, it is bigger than tangs and suntec city combine together AND 1 and a half time of national stadium. Anyway, we did a quick walk. When i said quick, i meant really quick because after 30 minutes , my mom decided to changed the plans and headed down to Marina Square.

Dinner there was good :] . why? Cause the waiter was good looking :D
Deborah, Huay Wen and I bought clothes from PMK and my mother `stole` stickers from Newbie and Huay Wen love me so much that she gave me a monkey badge that i wanted <3
By the time i came home, it is 12. I was totally knock out.

BTW. Deborah is so two-face la.

When she is shopping, she is all so fun and loving and wild
but when she is at home, she is so grumpy, irritable and explosive.

I just realised it when i stayed over at her house on Friday. I practically got shout at half the time. Man, it has been 15 years and i just knew this? No wonder, Deborah and Ryan are always fighting. Anyway, Hi Deborah :D


HMM. i need inspiration for O level art. D:

And Hello. (:

Someone `s blog post.

this is someone `s blog post. i just copy and paste it.

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sometimes i wonder why do people think they are always right. something i wonder why people don t ever feel that they are hurting someone. sometimes i wonder whether do they even considered about being sensitive and properly stop making fking judges.

i don t understand. i mean she is a xxxxxx teacher. she should understand the difference between mine and hers. is it really the same? hell no . okays i admit i copied the background of hers but it was of a different colour. BUT HELLO, i am doing on XXXXXXXX and she is doing on PPPPPPP. Q took a picture of herself being so stress, stretching her hand out. I took a picture of myself hands to hands, hiding my face because i am suppose to be chained.

i really am damn pissed. First she told me i copied Q for the background many times. (countless) No matter how hard i explain , she does not want to believe me. So i just let it be. Next thing i knew, my teacher scolded me of copying Q photo pose. i was like wtf. this is totally different. this was going too far la. then i tell her i wasn t . i explain what the photo mean and this is what she shut me off with:

{(my name), (my name), you got to be confident in yourself. you can t go on copying people`s work. you got to have a idea of your own, original! why is it you must copy other people work. why can t you think yourself. if you want to go art school, you got to be confident. come on. please la. stop this. don t copy people`s work. you can draw well, (my name). Just that...}

i hated the word chee bai. i hated how it sound, insulting womanhood. but somehow i coudln t stop saying it in my head. i was like omgosh. i was like boiling inside already but she went on and on and on, telling me how i copy people`s work. I STAYED UP FOR MANY NIGHTS, LOSING MY SLEEP , and your telling me the next morning, i am copying people`s work? is this how it go? Similar work = copied. Fine , just give me a U grade. Say i copied.

In the end, i coudln t take it.

NEVERMIND, I DON T WANT TO EXPLAIN TO YOU ANYMORE. FORGET IT.

i said that to her and continued doing my work.
seriously, art school? what has my mother told her? I CAN T STAND ALL THIS PREP WORK ANYMORE, art school? tell me god, this is a joke. anyway, she just gave me a angry look. i coudln t be bothered and it was my first time shouting at a teacher.

And last night, i tried doing something creative like burning the paper with brown edges at the sides and next thing i knew, when i went outside of the art room, i saw Q doing the same thing. Straight away in my mind, i was thinking SHIT.

I am sure she is going to say I copied Q again.
somehow, i am always copying Q, it can never be the other way around.



















is it okay to cry?

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end of someone`s blog post.

♀ GIRLS RULE.

i had POA MCQ question today.
i had lunch with my friends today.

bye.

QUIZ.

hey peipei. don t angry with me. i really want to send you the photo but you know that it is nver the right timing :] so boohoo :D wait for me lor! hehes. okays i am quite touched by peipei`s quiz. almost all of them got my name in it :l whether it is in a good way or bad. BUT. she still remember me :D aww. peipei. i love you too la :D

before i go on with the quiz, math paper2 was a killer. Hmm, not everything is a killer. Only section B. thanks hor loh si lan. i dunno wtf is wrong with the graph. some pathetic mutated U-shaped graph. Then later got this physic teacher tell me this shouldn t be the shape but i told her even if one of my calculation is wrong, the points given by the question is not connecting properly either. She also stumped. -.- in the end i spend the last 10 minutes doing some freak culmulative frequency which i supposingly hate it. do i have a choice? both question is like 10 MARKS!

BLAHHS. ROORRR. ARGHHH. BLEUUURGH.

ALRIGHT. quiz time baby!

10things/people i want here RIGHT NOW
lets take this quiz really close to my heart

1. Korkor :D
2. A stack of papers
3. Color pencils
4. Happiness pill :)
5. Lovable Cousins
6. A detector to find selfish people who is creating the haze now.
7. A cure to my sinus.
8. Perfect eyesight.
9. Best friends
10. Party :]

10 things/people i want in MY FUTURE

1. My mother . i want her to spoil her grandkids :]
2. Happy family
3. Best friends
4. Still have a roof over my head.
5. 3 square meals per day
6. A great job- National Floorball player? `HAHA?`
7. Owning a big piece of land!
8. Build a farm :]
9. More time for everybody in my life
10. Sinful food that won t make me fat :]

1o things/ people I MISS

1. Korkor
2. Yi lin
3. Rocky
4. Caramel ):
5. Grandparents
6. Pizza made by micheal`s friend ! :D
7. Lemon baked salmon.
8. Bondi beach in Australia
9. Clean air in Australia
10. Mommy`s tomyam noodles!

10 things/people i love

1. Family
2. Best friends
3. Rocky!
4. Gummi bears.
5. DARK CHOCOLATE.
6. GREEEEN
7. FLOORBALL.
8. Drawing
9. Listening to music :D
10. Taking beautiful photos.

1o things i bring EVERYWHERE I GO.

1. WALLLLLET
2. Handphone.
3. Tissue packets
4. Spare spectacles :l
5. Watch
6. Rubber band
7. Mp3
8. Pen :]
9. Pad? LOL. omg.
10. A bag to hold everything xD

10 blogs i always read -ohboy-

1. mine. -.-

can i don t do this? i mean i hardly update man!


10 people i want to see doing this lame quiz

1. Sandy! >;]
2. Pauline
3. Raquel
4. Deborah
5. Yi lin.
6. Ys!
7. Huaywen?
8. Vk?
9. Simon?
10. My mother?

LOOL. OKAYS DONE, bye.

lulululu.

wow. so long never blog. inactive blog.
wait la. after my Os, i will blog as many times at i want.

now i am just taking a break after countless of stupid math problems. i hope these question won t come out tomorrow. i will surely throw the desk at the teacher`s face. damn it.

now crapping with pauline and zs and listening to soup.
and surprisingly i am quite current with maple . maybe is because i am playing with friends there, making it more enjoyable and most of all funny :D

oh well, i am halfway prelims and sorry to all my friends out there that this blog is sooo not updated esp the links =x.

btw i am wondering who created words like this. For eg: ii lubb euu, euu arre shoX kawaii. i don t really understand. does it in any way make them cuter or dumber? if you are one of these `kawaii` people. please listen to Dan and Young show on 98.7 . At one point of time, they will call themselves the Ong and Leong and they will start acting twittish. It is really funny. after you listen, you will finally realise how stupid you sound. :] like my cousin call them, gayshit. LOL.

okays. that is about it :]

*buaiiiii . muii lubb euu longg tiime!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM + YVONNE

so yvonne. you like your present not :] especially the one shxxxx got for you ! HAHAHA. but the ironic thing is both her parents and us got her the same thing - a watch . BUT OURS IS NICER. :D we celebrate at lejoy`s house and had burnt pizza and sinful chocolate cake. oh gosh. calories calorie calories. lejoy`s dog is cute. i want to uplaod the videos but my father took the camera overseas.

now talking to sandy in souper`s tag box. super weird

then my father brought my mum to this hotel when we can enjoy our lunch from the 70th floor. then when you go into the lift, your ear can actually `block` . HAHA. okays. i think i am the only one laughing. then there was this dao guy. s b dao. i accidentally bumped into him then i say sorry. then he gave me the fierce look. then i not happy i go and punched him!




just kidding. i just not happy and kept my hands to myself.
btw the view was beautiful. serious. i think if you go there, you can see your house from there.

then later went to raffles city and walk around. i saw RAQUEL! thank god she didn t see me. if not she will say to me, eee, who is this ugly girl. LOOL. okays i bought sunglasses and an adidas jacket :] on offer. simon, it is nothing like wei xiang jacket. so don t jealous. x]

if i kiss you.

happy teacher`s day to all the teachers out there :]

okays this is weird. normally i have alot of things to say. anyway i haven t been online for 2 days le. i bought alot of things :D i shoudln t be spending money. i should be studying! anyway for the 2 days that i didn t go online. i been embarrousing myself . wah lau. i never felt my face went so red before lor -.-

went to taka on thursday with deborah. before that had a small conflict with my mom. it was because of art . aiyah. i dunno la. but it is all okays now. anyway me and deborah went to the bag section then i saw this green retro bag. then i was like happy happy swing here swing there. then when i was about to walk off when i realise my bag like got this weird feeling. WAH LAU. is i already put back my real bag and bring the green bag with me. SO @#$@!%%#^. then deborah couldn t stop laughin and all. ARGH#$% #$%#@!. i mean like how silly can i get lorh -.-

then later went to starbucks cause deborah was thirsty . so me and deborah were hanging around the counter when one of the staff talk to us. she was like quite friendly la. so she was talking to me in this angmor slang. then i was the closest to her . so she ask me " where did you come from? " then i say so loudly. " oh singapore! " then both deborah and the staff gave a huh. then deborah said " oh we came from HOME. " sheet. then the staff was like smiling to herself.

i mean like . ARGH. nevermind.

went to tampines yesterday with wen and yi and deb.
as usual embarrous myself again.
):

but i bought new clothes!

OHHH CHERRY TREE.

sigh. i just had my english prelim. i thought i have written on a beautiful story on PERSEVERANCE. however, no no. EVERYBODY WROTE THAT TITLE ):

hey.
this is not good.

MANY MANY OTHER FISHEs

argh. my english prelim is tomorrow. i mean like woah, i think time is doing more than flying. sheet leg cramps. anyway i really want to get a B for english -.- to me, it is hard la. but you know the nike mission, NOTHING IS IMPOSSSSSIBLE. but guess what? i am not nike :] i am jingyun. so what is my mission? eat, sleep and play :] -thumbs up-

my mission rocks.

so hmm. how`s life . fine lorh.

anyway i have a tempting bubble on my palm. i got burnt and didn t wash it under water straight away. i guess it was because i was in front of everyone and them. so i put up a brave front and pretend nothing was wrong. wah lau. the pain is just like nothing i never felt before. very hot, itchy and burning. argh. i dunno how to describe it. so now i have a little pop on my left hand reminding me of that STUPID UGLY INCIDENT. sigh. why.

i really want to play floorball.
i really want to play floorball with my old team mates again.
i really want to forget about all that had happen to me.

-

there are certain friends i need to apolegise to and there are certain friends i need to thank! and most of all are hugging and loving the certain friends who mostly get me to the uppp-iest of my life :]

moooarks :D

whatever. i don t give a damn.

i think the creator of humans forgotten something.

The creator forgot to took away the feelings on how human judge you by first impression.

once you got a first impression, you will never change it. like for example, you see a beautiful girl, and all would coo she would be a nice girl, kind , generous, just by her pretty face. you know how fucking irritating is that?

the second thing creator forgotten is to remind humans that they make mistakes.

when you made a mistake in front of everyone, they will start judging you. HAHA, SHE IS SO CLUMSY. HUH, DON T LA. SHE WILL RUIN IT. HEY THIS GIRL, DON T TALK TO HER.
i mean like wtf is wrong with people nowdays? had they never came across the word FORGIVEN? had they never across the word SECOND CHANCE? okays. this is getting on my nerves.


no, i am not saying that THE CREATOR is the blame to the problems of humans. i am just disgusted at my ownself. why is it i have to care about what people think about me. why is it i want to be somebody? why is it i can t be myself? is it because nobody like `myself` ? i can t believe i just let her tell me like that. what actually provoke me when she said, ` jingyun you know what i don t like you, is you react very fast when people say bad things to you`. wth. then how would you react? i mean hello. your first reaction is like wtf. you would be thinking, what the hell would they say bad things about. then when i ask her would you react fast. she could only reply ` i dunno` obviously i was quite pissed la. okays wait. i admit it is my fault. it is my fault that things turn out this way. but why is it people only focus on your weakness? i mean hercules had his achilles heel. i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno. i am so sick of this. so annoyed.

i thought i could shake off the past memories.
but a scar would always be a scar.

and i have reflected.
actually i am not talented at all.


what was i thinking?

PRELIMS.

mug mug mug.
study study study.
revise revise revise.
learn learn learn.
memorise memorise memorise.
think think think.
vomit
vomit
vomit.

SHEEEPs

if you see more than one sheep in the field, is it called SHEEPS? if you say yes, like sandy would, then YOUR WRONG :D no such word. its okays, don t kill yourself because you got the wrong answer. okays, anyway i like my new skin :] i think is like everytime i get a new skin, it always have something to do with rabbits. why ? WHY?

i dunno. and don t give a damn.

went to do printing in the morning. now waiting for mummy to come home with my mooncake :D am i still to old to light the lantern and walk around my block? or should i just stay fat and eat all the mooncakes i want? or stay emo and look at the moon xD.

no way. i am anti-emo.

anyway i am so so so bored.

JY rocks :D

=o WHAT THIS?
A NEW POST? CLAP :]

okays. i think after sandy see this post, she going to say i am bhb. YAY. so happy for soupers. we got our own radio :] no more kisser-ups, no more HEAD OF DJ, just us. the mushroom.

celebrated my aunty`s bday on saturday. i can t believe i made this cute little boy cried! it was just because he didn t like that i was scoring goals >;l well, later his uncle comforted him by giving me a yellow card which is actually a tissue paper. -.- then i just pretend to cry. gosh.you should see the way he stare at me with that killer look. i mean for a 5 year kid, he would stand there and cry, but he stand there and give me those eyes. i was like so shocked la. then later he took my hand and pretend it was a leash and he ran around me , like hoping i would get tangled and rolled down the slope. later, he tried his jackie chan kick, which he missed and his football tackle slide which again, missed :l . then after the game, he wouldn t talk to me and in his mind is FOREVER NEVER.

OH OH before that. there was this nerd which is actually my distant distant distant cousin. luckily is distant :] he was wearing a von dutch shirt, tattered and torned jeans and a very branded hat. BUT HOR, a bucky smile, a gel side hair, and those thick glasses. argh. argh. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH. when i saw him coming in, i quickly pat huay wen`s leg. LOL. then both of our reaction is WTF. okays la. this is bad. but, i can t take it.

huaywen and huay yi came to my house after the party.
and WE MADE A WEDDING VIDEO.DAMN FUNNNNNY. it is only 2 minutes long but when our parents see, is like they think is 1 hour. sians. all dead meat. lao liao.

i haven t played floorball for a long time. sigh.

I AM LAZY. THANKS AND BYE

FOUL.

i will never forget 9th August 2006. it is an ugly memorable day. somehow, i wished i could be stronger and protect her. but no, i am a girl with a weak strength.


















any man who hits a woman is a coward. A FUCKING COWARD. i swore i will one day make sure you get a taste of your own medicine, you fucking retard.

THELAKEHOUSE

had a big blast yesterday. went to the new cathy cinema to watch the lakehouse. the movie was not bad la but there was some parts i didn t exactly understand. before that, had to go to school to celebrate national day eve. IT WAS SO SO SO BORING >;l sgs idol cannot sing for nuts. i think half the time we weren t paying attention and i think because of the rain, we were release an hour earlier :D then the school gave us this budget file :D with recycled paper. aiyeah, just take la :D . then i am so scared. i am going to get my chinese Os result on FRIDAY. like wtf! i hope i pass ! i hope i pass! i hope i pass!

then one big group of us like mostly from 4e2. jun, jieying,peipei,nadiah,yvonne and me :D go and watch movie :DD before that, we had LJS for lunch at hougang . the service was like slowpoke la >;l then the manager who was serving me and peipei went into the kitchen and started shouting at people. peipei and i gave the wth-is-going-on face.

even though the movie started at 1, it was already quite a long queue at the box office. maybe they were buying other tickets, i am just assuming they are buying the same as me :D later we go plaza singapuraaa and walk. it is so boring ): , maybe it is because i am with the boring people . HAHAHA. joke :] later me and yvonne shared the SUPER LARGE POPCORN cause we were confident of finishing it la. then it is not bad la. just that, it is sweet until you eat and you get sick of it . it is actually caramel popcorn. jun, jieying and peipei and nadiah share the small popcorn. so after the movie, we still left like HALF THE POPCORN INSIDE. then the funny thing is peipei and jun and jieying and nadiah cannot even finish the small popcorn lorh xD

later all of us decided to sit from dou-b gaut ( sheet speeling) sit until outram park and then back again to hougang \sengkang. then later jun and i sat down and opposite got this angmor like the shirt never button, look like a drunken freak. then he kept looking and laughing and smiling at JUN :D not me thanks. then me and jun were quite disgusted like eew la. so later we alighted at outram park so the angmor also, then while he go up the escalator, he still stare and smile at us. damn funny. then later we quickly went back in the train. later all of us sat down then suddenly got this young angmor sat in front of us , i think only jun and i understand and we started laughing la. then i say: this one leh? then she say: THIS ONE OKAYS LA,. STILL NOT BAD. wah lau. like that also can xD

went to compass mall and sit in the library for a while to wait for my mother and my aunty for finish their jewellary making lessons. then i saw this guy like useing the library `s electricity to charge his lappy? you mean it is allowed meh? don t care la. sheet. just wondering . after that i join my aunty and mom for late tea at delifrance. the WASABI SAUCE is like SHIOK :D i finished one container. but don t ordered the fish dippers cause inside is not cooked. then my mother got to send it back 2 times. in the end we just cancel the order :D

i was sooo tired. from 7am to 9pm yesterday.
anyway sandy spell dhouby gaut as dou-b god.

i bought something for someone . cant wait to give it to @#$$.
:D

okays. this is a long long post.

IMPACT.

does that one word sorry really can make everything alright ? i mean, even if i do say it to you, will it change everything and back to the way we are? i tried ways to approach you but you simply brushed me off and you said i did it to you. why, why can t you scold me and shout at me so i will know what`s going on , instead of leaving me in the dark. however, nothing matters cause you don t want to pursue the matter and besides, it takes two hands to clap. i think you would be reading this , and laughing and smiling to yourself. your glad, i am punished in this manner. i don t get it, why i am so affected but you can continue the life you had without me there. maybe i should learn this from you.

-

mock biology was a freak test. if i can pass, i am happy. everybody is stumped. thank gawd. i don t feel left out.
:D lalalas.

KLEENEX.

hey. i dunno what`s up with my stupid nose. can t seem to stop sneezing and sneezing. now talking to sandy. so late le, still so high. before that , talk to pauline , then we crap and crap. later she told me this joke which i keep laughing at . some horse joke la. i dunno why, i find cold jokes damn funny. maybe is because you can never guess that damn answer.

mummy cook the best tomyam noodles :D i think if she open a shop, surely very popular :]

YIXIN ):

sheet la. don t have that 9pm show on channel 8 ): after today, my life can continue to be sians ): this is the only chinese show i am so intrudged in okays ): see, how many sad face have i type? anyway, happy ending :D but for guo bin, like he is the unwanted one. cause siqi and guojun is happy lalaing, yixin and weixing happy lalaing . THEN HOR. i think xiao ling very pei with victor :D cause they always suan each other. then left guo bin all alone ): nevermind la :D i take !

didn t go school today . went for english tuition. then go hougang mall for dinner.

i can no longer look forward to 9 `o` clock. now the show is replaced by the guy who ate the orange and kiss the girl who ate the pomelo.

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?

i am satisfied. i made a lot of friends today :D some really qian bian one >;l but overall, they are funny :D floorball is getting weird now days. keith was quite angry with us today. he said we are no postition to shout for a line change. but if we don t shout, they will continue scoring goals, airhooking, faking. i don t mean it in a bad way. just that yeah, we are waiting >;l

anyway. i think he was refering to me too :D

heck.

i cant balance my partnership a/c. this is bonkers.

MOCK.

nah. not mocking people. it is the mock exams ): sigh, everytime i hear the word EXAMS. i get like damn sians. i can t wait for this year to be like over. is like everybody will tell you better study hard, next year get dream course. study hard for your future job. I AM JUST NOT CUT OUT FOR STUDIES . sickening books. anyway, i don t really want to bother about you. you lead your life, i lead mine. since you want to be like childish, i just leave it like that.

anyway thanks to my dearest friends who still visit my stagnant -.- or decomposed blog. (;
don t waste your time la xD .

whoever mary is, i don t give a damn about your boii.
and i don t fancy twits :D
like you= euuuu
i = ii
me = muii.

like wtf is wrong with these people -.-

MOVE ALONG.

when you gotta keep it strong, move along move along
when everything is wrong, we move along.
and even when your hope is gone, move along move along
just to make it through.
right back where it is wrong, WE MOVE ALONG.

chinese Olevel listening compre is up tomorrow :l
sigh, just let me pass, GOD DAMN IT >;l
so i can get over it and worry about others.. STUFF.
i am sick of worry for someone who does not need it at all.
some fucked up waste of energy.
your NOT the only one on this planet.
go on, i don t care anymore.

come to think of it, i haven t started of english work. argh, is this what year 2006 meant to be?

or am i just feeling desperately sorry for myself just because of that ?

HELLO, are you there?

i am quite upset at the moment. I just can t take it what is happening around me. Yeah, maybe i am spoilt and i can t take the cruel world out there (if that is what your thinking) I just don t understand the changes that is going between us. I mean what is ___ trying to do? What did ___ hear, or maybe what did i do to ___. or maybe , ___ is just sick of my annoying presence. whatever it is , it is pulling me down. i enjoy the time i had with you and i hope for the best.

i can tell, __
you don t want to know me anymore.

but it is nice knowing you.

love:
JY.

-.- this letter is not about BGR relationship, thankyou.

it okays, i don t mind taking all the punishments or the blames
if it takes everyone having fun.
i will do it for you guys :D

yesterday we were all playing chalk and water,
play until so hilarous.
okays, it is partly our fault for screaming at 12 in the morning
but we hardly get together, surely a scream or 2 is harmless?
but heck la, in the end my father kao pei,
think i am the main problem and gave me confinement by ordering me to sit on the sofa.
i think Rocky sense me being so moody, then he pei me for a while.

wah lau :D
Rocky zui hao :D

-

yay :D
korkor coming back again :]]

EEYORE`S DAY

today i got a late late late late late suprise party from lejoy, peipei and yvonne :D they tricked me into thinking we are training for floorball. BUT I HAVE TO WAIT FOR THEM TO COME FOR LIKE 2 HOURS. nevermind. i needed to get outta the house anyway. my mother is always spoiling my clothes. ALWAYS.

i waited for them at the playground. i just sat there, kept thinking of what happen back there. Then i just sit at the bench and watched the boys played soccer. there was this really ke ai guy that kept looking my way but i was too upset to be filrting with him. BHAHAHAHA. nah, just kidding. but i think he is too young for me la :D OKAYS LA. WHAT SHEET AM I LIKE TALKING.

anyway, my good friends gave me a eeyore toy :D SO ADORABLE. and a eeyore cup :D
I am gonna use it and put my milo inside :D i sound so lame hor. LOL. anyway, peipei you promise to upload all the pictures we have taken :D

tommorow is my game,
winning is our name :D

REFEREE KAYU.

do you see that big big big big big 2 words there? that`s what happened in floorball interschool B girls today. I think if i see both of these referee again on thursday, they sure gonna get whacked by me. bloody ars. Because of my `stupid stupid stupid` tactic, i wanted to scare Bedok Town, SO I WENT UP TO THE ONE WITH THE BALL AND GUESS WHAT? i BOO her! then i think i tripped or something, i fell on top of her, then i wanted to grab my balance, i think i hold on to her. THEN, THE REFEREE GIVE ME A MINUTE OUT CAUSE I WAS PUSHING.

wtf. this is my first time getting a minute out.
THANKS HOR.
FOR GIVING ME THIS OPPORTUNITY.

we lost to bedoktown (1-5)
we thrashed oops i mean won hillgrove (16-0 )

i am really worried about thursday
going to be a tough match ):
WISH ME LUCK OKAYS :D

i can t help it , there`s like so many things i hate about my chinese tuition teacher. I rather prefer the old one . this new teacher is driving me nuts. here is a list of examples:

1. when i am reading out loud, she is resting her head on the table
2. when i am reading out loud, she is looking at my art project.
3. when i am reading out loud, she is biting her nails and looking out of the window.
4. when i am reading out loud, she is using my penknife to cut her nails
5. when i am reading out loud, she keep touching my bed
6. when SHE is reading out loud, she tells me to focus.

Somehow it does not make sense? She keeps asking me if i want a break, if i need a break. I mean if she wants a break, she can say so? I mean before my chinese O`s , i used to have 3 hours of chinese WITHOUT A BREAK. And i have to admit, my chinese really sucks to the maximum. So this results in bad hanyu pinyin. So everytime i pronounce wrongly, she will make a CHEK sound with her mouth loudly . I mean what`s is her problem? She should know this is my problem and there she is , tweeting like a bird. CHEK CHEK CHEK.

Okays, so the last 15 minutes would be conversation between me and her. I didn t want to talk to her today. She made me mad, REAL MAD. So i just kept my head down, avoiding her eyes while she went bleh bleh bleh away. Then she did something really really annoying.

She stretched out her hand and rubbed my head.

My immediate reaction was : WTF, GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME.

Only of course in reality, i gave a weak smile and moved back away. I am not some damn bitch. I am a homosapian.

-

love playing with crunchie today. her melodious melody is turning me on :]

C.....- WHAT ? :l

hehs. i just bought my $140 guitar today at bras basar. the service there is so muchhhh better and so is the guitar. satisfied, i bought it and i am loving it :D . can t wait for audrey to teach me tomorrow. but the problem is i am always biting on my nails, forget it, i will use the picker. :]
neh neh neh :] i didn t get the textures i wanted today for my art project, i just bought a mechanical pencil and some glow in the dark pen. how childish :D

we later headed down to raffles city. there was this lego pirate fair , do you know how cool it was ): suddenly wen started giggling to herself. i was like, what`s now? she pointed at the `big` lego woman who had big boobs. pretty hyteriscal. i mean what was the people thinking when they were building this? hehs. perverts.

i saw this super super superrrrrr nice sleeveless shirt in Esprit. It has this lightish lemon yellow strips ): I coudln stop admiring myself when i wore it. okays, i know i am pretty thick to say this. but sadly, i didn t buy it ): IT WAS $29.90 !! SO RIDICULOUS OKAYS! and it was suppose to the GRAND SINGAPORE SALES. - fold arms and kick esprit`s board- this is dumb >;[
for a piece of yellow cloth! argh! digusting sheet.

-

just watch X men 3 yesterday. shawn ashmore (iceman) is so cute la :] i could just kiss him on the cheek ! hehs. i thought ben foster was cute but after i saw some images of him in long hair. i urm, gave up on him. I am sorry, long hairs are only for girls. :l i am sorry angelman, you fly so gracefully but your hair kinda freaked me out. (: Keep your hair short and spikey , like how i love it :] Because i watched the x men3 movie late, i missed the opening of the world cup. I REALLY WANNA SEE . ): i think after i joined floorball, i didn t seem to scold men who watched football because in the end floorball and football is still chasing after one ball. I am not a hypocrite la ;D



i thought about it. i want to call my guitar - CRUNCHI.

CAT-CRASHED ACCIDENT.

i almost caused a cat to get rolled down by a car today. i wanted to pet it but it was so afraid and my sudden walking moment caused it to ran across a road. i heard a screech of car tires and the cat , eunice, rich, the driver and i were in shocked. Because of the cat, everything seem to be on a stand-still. Eunice screamed when the cat almost got knocked down by the car. I dunno why i am laughing about this now . I guess it`s the way she actually have emotions for the cat.

Eunice and i have a very funny friendship. one moment, we are laughing at each other and the next moment we are angry and start bickering at each other. However, it is was always better the next day. Not a perfect friendship, but at least i know she is considered as a friend, always putting a smile on my face most of the times. Like today during art remedial, i was sweeping the dirty floor. I think for the Chinese, it is sort of a bad thing to have a broom sweeping at your leg [i think]. I started sweeping near her, and while she was busy cutting her fungi. I decided to annoy her by tickling her feet with the broom. So there she was, crossing her leg , doing her work. Suddenly she screamed and she wanted to move her leg away to get it far far far away from the broomstick but apparently her leg was just stuck there! Pretty funny. You should have seen her dumb leg struggling to escape. I think i laugh pretty heartily. I even scared Izdihar and cause Miss Yvonne and Miss Seow to look at me. Then i took another glance at Miss Yvonne , she was smiling at me . Was she also affected by my infectious laughter or just plainly laughing at this strange girl who laughing so loud, rude for another word.

now i will just move on.
you don t want to talk about it , you don t want to start it. that`s why we will never understand, in other words i am stressing you so much. Why? we don t have the same character.


that why. that`s the answer.
plus i insist too much. okays.

the solution to the problem.
no wait. YOUR solution. but we will go along with that.
you know why?




I DON T GIVE A DAMN NO MORE.